Went to the Blues Bar with Fernanda and Chris.
Why the fuck cant boys I want hit on me? Why the fuck do I get the losers? And why the fuck do I feel bad enough to give them any attention? What the fuck is wrong with me??? It’s not about going out with them or even liking or desiring them but I would prefer to be hit on by people I want, and not the goddamn spares.
Fuck man. Why????
I am such an asshole.
The rules of friendship dictate that once your friend expresses an interest in a girl, it is you’re duty to back off, even if the girl in question has zero or less interest in your friend and would much rather prefer you.
So……..what happens?? I get stuck with the lamo-o instead of the hottie.
I loathe the goddamn rules. Fuck the rules. His friend knew I preferred him, I knew I preferred him but still, I get stuck with the schmuck. It’s fucking guaranteed. The schmuck of course is completely clueless, as they usually are.
I’m going to have to ignore the guy I gave my number to. Assuming of course that he calls. (Sigh). He was a nice guy, but his friend was so much more attractive.
I am such a shallow asshole.